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Wednesday, January 31, 2007
stranger than fiction
I picked up a free range tag from That Shadow My Likeness. (safari browser doesnt let me link very well, but you can find her in my link section) Labels: the truth
The rules: Tell five truths about yourself that you haven't yet revealed. I agree with Shadow, I don't have many revealable secrets that I haven't already revealed, but I'll try my hardest.
1.) Usually when I want to dump someone, I'll act terrible towards them in hopes that they will break up with me first. The sad part is, I don't have a long enough attention span to keep this up before I get sick and call it off myself. So, needless to say, this has never worked. I tried it a few days ago, infact, and only could keep up the farce for an hour or two.
2.) I secretly have a crush on the guy who pays Gollum in Lord of the Rings. His name is Andy Serkis I believe.
3.) Despite my beach and salt water bashing, I would spend my last sundown on a beach if I had the choice. Prefferably in complete isolation, only those I preordain in attendance, but that's not really possible unless I go back to Qatar. I think, though, that the breeze and colors of the beach at sundown is the most serene and magnificent that I could find for a final sundown.
4.) Some people think I'm a good listener, but secretly I thrive on listening to people's drama and problems like a live soap opera. It's also good observation hours on human behavior. Can't get enough human behavior appreciation as a writer.
5.) Last, and probably least, I like shoes. I buy shoes, a lot. More than I wear, especially because they aren't practical shoes, but I still buy them because I enjoy buying shoes. When I get paychecks, or used to, I would go buy a pair of shoes to make myself feel good. It worked. I think the next job I get will refuel a shoe frenzie that has been long overdue. All this moving has deepleted my shoe overload to a depressing low.
And there you have it. Perhaps the truths weren't breathtaking and nigh unbearable to hear, but they are unrevealed truths nonetheless.
I tag: Freckleface and Rain. Anyone else is welcome to join in on the fun!
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
he's no yoda
It's no secret that the movie E.T. scared the living be-jeebies outa me, I'll admit that openly. In fact, instead of leading the freaky pile of anamantronic mud into my house, I would have found some sort of shot gun. But alien-hating aside, I have a point to make about life in the universe based on the national geographic channel's exploration of martian life. Labels: E.T. vs Yoda
The show I was watching had lots of people talking, you know how they do: two people talk in seperate places about their extreme, totally loony theories, none of which apply to me. This program also gave another person, one who was semi neutral. Instead of defending a foul ball, he came in and said, "I don't belive in this because of this, this, and this. Now here's why it doesn't matter either way..." I liked him...
Anyway, there was one guy on there who said, "I think one day we're going to search up all the planets in this solar system, and when we do, and we find no life, finally we will look at the earth as a special place that provides something to the entire universe." Sure I don't want aliens attacking earth, but I'm not going to go as far as to assume that in such an expansive area of space that is the universe, we are the only living things. In fact, didn't they find bacteria on mars already, or am I the only on that remembers that?
Sorry, I keep getting off track.
After that one annoying dude made his speil, the narrator came back with something profound, "Even when compared to our worst martian attack nightmares, isn't solitude more frightening?"
And I agree. Who the hell wants to look at the billions and trillions of stars and solar systems and think to themselves, I'm completely alone here. No one would want to look at the earth as the only human inhabitant, hell the only living inhabitant, so what's the difference in the universe? I understand that the unkown is a bit creepy, and I'm the last person to want to bring E.T. back, but as long as they keep to themselves like we do, can't there be others out there?
Technorati Tags: E.T, NGC, life on mars, annoying documentaries, solitude
Saturday, January 20, 2007
time of your life
Seven years ago I had a dream that for some weirdo reason there were only a few youngins to keep the human population going. (Let's say over half the planet picked up and went to Jupiter.) In the dream, I found myself in a crazy 80's style wedding dress participating in a multiple couple wedding, an arranged marriage thing between the remaining young boys and girls to reproduce. At the altar, all ready with the whole kit and caboudle, I stood infront of my mom and the whole church, and said, "You know, this probably isn't the best time to bring this up, but I never really planned to have children." Labels: dreamscope
Not much else about the dream is important. I just think it's funny that even in my dreams I'm someone who wants to have this odd life, compared to everyone else in my family. I don't want what they have/want. It's not like I'm in one of those opressive families that would disown me for not bearing children, but I know that it would get me treated different. At the family reunions in 20 years, I'll be standing there with my husband all weird and awkward like most childless couples while my brothers and sister's prodigy are climbing up the walls and throwing punch at eachother. Yay.
Most people are like, "You say that now, but I bet you'll change your tune come your late twenties."
Sure, whatever, thats the future though. Right now, I don't want kids, and I don't want to plan on them. You know? I want to plan on ME. Is that so odd? Is that so selfish?
Technorati Tags: dreams, jupiter, childless couples, family reunions, prodigy, future
Friday, January 12, 2007
the high and low of it
My teacher set an assignment to better help our self esteem (it's a personal development class) and we had to set some plans in motion following closely his and the text books advice. It seemed kind of silly to me because he says to make the plans and act on them in the same day, which isn't allways possible, but that's another bucket of cheese. Labels: the truth
What the real kicker was that step number 2 is to be more honest. I'm not sure that he knew I have been holding something back from everyone but my best friend, but I saw step number two as my excuse to get it off my chest finally. I have a boyfriend! And i've had him for almost a month now. I just never told anyone because it's one of those relationships that aren't ideal. So un-ideal that I've already tried it out once and I'm going for it again. Another reason I never said anything was because it is a long distance relationship, so it's hard for me to feel like it's real. Maybe it's not as official as "boyfriend" and all that technical nonsense, but it's something.
Another reason I can't keep up the charade, especially to my mom, is because he's moving to L.A. with his sister. That's only an hour north. Perhaps thats 'long distance' but nearly as bad as it was. I imagine that it'll be less easy to hide if he actually shows up on my doorstep. Plus it's not fair to him to continue ignoring his presence. So there you have it, McPaige has revealed the big secret. Not to mom yet, she's a little too busy at work right this moment, but she said she'd call me in an hour. Then I'll drop the bomb. (yes, it'll be a bomb because she didn't like him the first time I dated him, and thats when he was millions of miles away) We'll see.
Technorati Tags: truth, personal development, long distance relationships, charades
Thursday, January 11, 2007
the double Ps
Labels: double 'P's of writingYour Drag Queen Name Is: 
I'm living tonight off the double Ps of writing: Pizza and Pepsi. Now I want to write a story about this "Miss Understood." She'd be an interesting character.
Technorati Tags: writing, drag queens, pepsi, pizza
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
i can't sleep
I have written a post in the past few days... I dont know what happened to it... :( Labels: random-nessy
Anyway, THANK YOU ffg! Your layout skill is a life saver, not to mention link saver. This valentines theme is so cute, and it is true, I do have a beef with how lovey dovey romance movies make me feel. And tv shows while on that topic. Roswell is a killer, FYI.
How are you all doing? .... that good, huh? Seems the new year is treating everyone as well as I hoped. ;)
I'm getting over an illness, my mom's catching one, and my cat... well he's just plain old Hurc, nothing new there. The dog on the other hand is becoming both more annoying and more endearing. If the two are connected, I'll be damnded. Maybe its true that women love things that piss them off. Ernie: case and point. He tried to eat my beautiful untouched bowl of mac and cheese tonight! After a good talking to I scooped off the top layer and we cuddled up to watch TV. . . I need to devise better punishments. Like 'off to bed with you' or something. If it gets worse I'll call the Dog Whisperer, even though he'll yell at me for spoiling Ernie.
In other news, I have a really pompous, full-of-himself prof for my intersession class, who I've already managed to piss off. Go figure, he doens't like students telling him that he doesn't care about us enough. If this effects my grade, I'm sueing.
Wow; either it's late and I'm getting a headache from too much computer time, or I've got a sneeze gremlein living in my nasal cavity. I'm betting on the latter because it doesn't involve "me" being at fault. ;) good night!
Technorati Tags: randomness, bad teachers, sneeze gremlin, Dog Whisperer, Roswell, 2007
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
round and round
Ok, I don't know what's going on, but suddenly my layout is dull and lifeless. Also, I seem to have lost all my comments and links.... WHAT HAPPENED TO MY SISTERS HARD WORK?!?! :-( I'm confused and saddened. It must have something to do with this new blogger deal. Maybe I pushed a button I wasn't supposed to. Whatever happened, I think I'm ready for it to go away.
In happier news, I learned how to play the opening song to Labyrinth on the keyboard! You know what they say about idle hands... they get bored and figure out how to play random songs by ear... As for right now, I'm eating hot dogs and waiting for my friend to call me back so we can go do something. I don't really care what we do, just as long as it's out of the house.
Wish me luck figureing out what happened.
Technorati Tags: new layout, dull, issues, idle hands, labyrinth, hotdogs
Monday, January 01, 2007
hershey's kiss of truth
What makes something true?
I can easily define a lie. It's simply not the truth. But then what is truth? Something that is not a lie? No, I won't accept those runaround answers. The dictionary can't help me here.
Growing up, I was given the impression that everything is questionable except democracy, the bible, and what adults say. In two decades, I have witneesed the decay of my faith in the three "unquestionables". The Bible isn't the word of God, it's the interpretation of centuries and centuries of man's translations. And it's not exactly the most clear text out on the market, I don't care what "contemporary bible" you find. It's just one more translation, one more chance to be wrong. What about democracy? Well, I don't think I have to delve too deeply into that (it could take too long), but what I will say is that some ideas get outmoded. Then for adults, I technically am one now and I as sure as hell can lie, and probably have to children. It makes me realize that there is nothing unquestionable, and therefore there isn't anything that is completely "true".
Truth can't be the ultimate, unshakable tower that dictionaries spell it out to be.
What's brought me to this conclusion is something that I happened to remember last night while doing a few prompts to ring in the new year. I had a lot of "story telling" (lying) practice in middle school. I remember one gullible friend in particular. I had her thinking I was a Witch and could do magic. Whether I believed it myself or not, well I don't know about that. Usually when i told a lie like that it was a sort of wish fulfillment. Anyways, I had her going. One night we might have delved a little too deeply into my lie. I don't know, but some things happened that I must not have expected to happen, because I was more astonished by them than she was. You see, she wasn't awed by the events because to her it was only a further testament to what I'd been talking about all along. To me, it was my elaborate story gone ary. To her, though, it was the truth, and it was confirmed. So is truth only a matter of who percieves it?
I'm not sure. I've never professed to be one who is trustworthy, for I surely am not; however, I have seen sincerity. That is the closest to truth I think I'm going to get.
Technorati Tags: truth, lies, dictionary, definition, witch, sincerity, democracy, the bible