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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
sweet daze aside
Weird crush of the week: Gene Wilder. You have to admit that his enthusiasm and brilliance on camera is entralling. You can't look away. Of course my two favorite movies of his are Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, and Young Frankenstein. I enjoy his others as well, but these two stand out to me.
Moving on, I had a post all ready to publish, but i don't know what happened to it. It said something along the lines of: Problem averted. I told robert not to come here, that it wasn't a good time for random visits. Not only do I have a baby to care for during the daytime, that baby also got her 6 month shots today, which will make my last few days here that much more demanding. And fun. ;)
So he's not going to come here after all. This random impulse to just hunt me down with out so much a phone call to warn me about it really kind of freaks me out. In a way, it's cute. But then in a totally stalker way, I'm worried that if I continue to patronize him inorder to avoid breaking his heart, (hoping that he'll eventually get bored of me), that the situation will continue to worsen as it has the past few days. Before I know it, I fear he'll climb into my bedroom window and expect me to marry him the next day. At that point its a bit late to go and tell him that I've been trying to avoid him and wait till he got bored of me, because if his enthusiasm for obsessing with me can also be used in a negative sense, I will have a little angry enemy on my hands.
Our mutual friends will side with him, I have no doubt of that. He's known them all longer, and I'm the one who freaking lead him on. This, sadly, doesn't bother me much. I'm not planning to see these people much anyway, and the worst they can do is delete me from their friends list on myspace. OOO I'm scared.
So I think that I have to tell him that it's off, and that I'm completly to blame for it's alsting as long as it did. I'm a pro at giving off a false impression of pleasantness, and I would have to explain that to him in a way that didn;t break him completely. I have to do this in the next 48 hours too, because I made the mistake of telling him he could meet me at the houtson airport on saturday instead of coming out to Miami today. I would rather call him tomorrow and get that over with rather than put it off till AFTER he drove all the 3 or 4 hours to see me and give me an expensive ring.
...I'm going to need some help with this... I've already vowed to call my ex-therapist tomorrow, so I might as well see what he has to say about this whole thing. I'm pretty sure I'm doing the right thing by ending it now, but I would like Lucky's (my therapist) advice, or maybe am agreement from him to confirm it's the right thing to do.
This is going to be difficult. Wish me luck, PLZ!
-wizeup